Smile.

If I came to visit,
what fun times we would have.

What if I just called you up to talk for a while?
Would that still be enough to brighten your day.

If I wrote you a letter.
Could it make you smile?

What if it were only a text saying "smile"
would you follow its directions?

If you just knew I want you to be happy.
Would that be enough?

To make you smile.

Dreams...

Do you ever wish you could live in your dream?

What we wouldn’t give sometimes to be able to go back to
sleep, even if just for a little bit more.
To find out what happens next.
To finish the saga.
To dream.

What disenchantment, when we recognize it’s not the truth,
when we feel the pillow beneath our head.
It’s so much worse the longer it takes.
A dream held in the head persistent is all the more wounding
when exposed.

May I stay in my dreams forever?
Let me stay asleep past morning,
Engulfed in the fog of fantasy,
Pursuing my dreams.

What if...

What if there was a new type of Facebook, MySpace, Friendster,
Bebo, Ringo or what have you. 

A new kind of social network that instead of being a network
was just for two people.
Just for you and me.

I would be your friend, and you would be mine.

No silly applications or groups. Just your page and mine.
We could write back and forth on each others walls.
You post pictures that make me smile, even if I were feeling
down.
I would tell you a joke, do my best to brighten your day.

Our profiles would contain our dreams and our secrets.
Rather than our age and our details it would say what we
want to be and how we want to live.

There would be no People I’d Like To Meet section. You are
already my friend.
This social network for two is already full.
The perfect amount of full like just after thanksgiving
dinner.
Not stuffed, not lacking. Just right.
You and me, friends.

i am not a runner...

so the last few nights i have not been even starting to get tired untill like 3:30 or 4... tonight was the same way. i was kind of annoyed about it. (not really annoyed cause i don't get annoyed very easily but that is a whole new topic) at 1:19 i thought what if i went for a run. that would make me tired i would think. and i have a nice running path right in the back yard (well the whole thing isn't in the back yard but it starts there. (really it starts in the front goes to the back and then over the lake on a bridge...anyways)) so i started looking for the shoes that would be most like shoes to go running in i have. that took a few minutes and so did finding my watch. i left the house at 1:29

i started running down the trail...
when i got to the bridge i realized that running over a bridge is kind of loud. at least its pretty loud at 1:30something in the morning.
pretty soon after that i started wondering why i am running on a trail when trails still have snow on them for most parts and sidewalks don't. oh well no sidewalk here right now so i keep running down the trail

after going what seemed like a good amount of time i walked a little bit and looked at my watch it was 4minutes 37seconds into my run. i wasn't really tired yet. i was tired of running but not tired. plans not working well so far.

after walking for a while i started running again. about this time i started thinking "where am i going to go?" i really hadn't thought this out much. i kept going.

i found a bright light in the sky. a street light higher than the others that you could tell was further down. i decided to run to that. not one of my smarter moves.

as i kept going in the run for a while walk for a bit style the runs started to turn more to "bits" and the walks for "a whiles" i found not only am i bad at running i am bad at breathing. that whole in the nose out the mouth. i can't do that. it takes to much coordination... running and breathing at the same time. too much for me

now i was off the path and onto the sidewalk. i realized there are people who still haven't shoveled from a few days ago. my heart filled with a deep dislike for these people. what if i slipped on ice and died because of them.

i kept running about half the time. "i'm making pretty good time i thought to myself" then i realized i didn't really know where i was going, how far it was or how long a normal time was so i can't really judge how good a time i have. well i still decided i was making good time.

as i got closer to the tall light i realized it was a light for the interstate. this kind of made me sad because i figured i am not going to be able to run to an interstate light. it would be much easier to run to a real street light. dang.

i found this small park thing that seemed like the last thing before interstate so i got there and used that as my turn around spot.

now comes the hard part. getting back. when you run not knowing where you are going you should maybe at least pay attention to where you do go so you can get back...

i got back pretty well. i couldn't really find the path again so i ran on the street most of the time. when i say ran i am taking that kind of lightly at this point. i was running maybe about a quarter of the time. but i was walking fast when i was walking. so i still felt i was making o.k. time.

after a while i got to where bluemont lakes was on my right side and since it was on my left when i was leaving this was a good sign. pretty soon i would be coming to the noisey bridge and then home. but i had to find the path to get to the bridge. and i couldn't see the start of a path anywhere. but i could see bethels steeple so i knew if nothing else i could A) just follow the lake forever untill i get home or B) walk to the steeple then home from there.

turns out i was on a different part of the lakes than i thought and everything was a different spot than where it should have been in my mind but i eventually got home and inside.

end time 28 minutes 37 seconds. 

i looked at google maps to try figure out where i went. i think i have it straight but i can't really be sure.
have a look here if you want
it ended up being over two and half miles. i am going to say that for my first time ever "going for a run" that 2.5 miles in 28 minutes isn't half bad. i bet all of you reading this can probably do way better but i think i did alright.

i got home and was extremely cold (maybe a jacket would have been a good idea?)
so i had a little sit down for a while and then a nice warm long shower. that felt good. but it woke me up again. so overall that plan to get tired was no good.

In God's Hands,
thomas kvamme

well i have been meaning to write a new one of these for a while. i will say i will and then i won't (say to myself not to anyone else cause if i said i would then i would have to)

well anyway here goes...

so my life lately has consisted of a few major things...

camp... been out there for some weekends its good stuff... linn makes me lots of good food and tells me to go to bed. what more could there be

youth group... i have been helping with youth group again doing sound and lights and computer and things. nice to do all that again. today charlie picked up a mic back by the soundboard and said "know why this is here, because on time we were watching a movie clip on the computer and we couldn't figure out how to put the sound through the system so i just held a mic by the computer the whole time. its good to have you back here again"

work... i work at kostka sporting goods, i make trophies. its a pretty good job. nice part is i get to make my own hours. just have to have the trophies done by when they need to be done by, other than that come and go whenever. last week i got all the trophies done that we had orders for so i got to take a day off. probably could have done that this week too if i wanted but i felt like sleeping in a little more each day and just spreading it out.

districts... did stuff at districts this last weekend, it was nice to see people again. its wierd being old now other people that "should" be at districts with me aren't. anyway it was still nice to see those of you who i did.

now i know i had more i was going to say on here but i guess i don't

oh one more thing. last night i was going to go to bed at 11:30 but then i started playing this game quiz thing and ended up playing it for an hour. you should try it. tell me how it goes for you.

so part of making trophies is the engraver and it is the part that takes the longest, in fact everything else i need to do to make a trophy usually takes about have the time it takes to engrave so i make the trophy while its engraving and then sit till it is done. so today i decided that you should give me things to write about on here and i will think about them while i am sitting for the short bits and then the time will go to good use

Answer: i did get a letter from hannah for christmas 100 points to her, caroline i didn't get a shirt for christmas, i got pants and socks and mittens, but a shirt for my birthday.
Question: the old trophy guy's name was gil, what is his wifes name?

In God's Hands,
thomas kvamme

well i suppose i could update. its been a while.

what all has happened since last time.

the 21st was the first snow in the cities so of course that night we
had a snowball fight. during the course of the fight gonzo threw a
snowball at me and i slipped running up the hill, this made was would
have been a solid body shot become a pretty hard eye shot.
so my eye didn't really want to open the rest of the night, it would open it just hurt.
that night at work jeff was working as the desk girl and he got an
airsoft to the eye earlier that week so we both were "eye gimps" as
someone said. so once just about everyone was out of the student center
we just turned off all the lights and sat in the dark.

the next day i was staying at brandons and my eyes were watering like
crazy (for mainly the one that got hit but the other one a little too)
his landlord was over for a bit and my eyes were really going at it so
i turned the tv to a chick flick and was "crying" when he came in to
meet me. it was funny i thought.

had christmas it was nice. had my birthday. that was nice too.

looking for jobs here. so far nothing... giving lots of applications so
we will see how that goes... someone asked me what kind of job i want
and i said "independantly weathly millionaire" but i don't think there
are any openings for that right now...

its been nice seeing people who i haven't seen in a long time.
 thats about all for this post i think. should try to do these more regularly. we'll ee i guess

Answer: i was 10 minutes late.
Question: name one thing i got for christmas?

In God's Hands,
thomas kvamme